I was replaced by an visually attractive 19yr old high school drop out that works in fast food, in debt, no hygiene, apparently preforms poorly, if at all, in bed. She's not liked by his children or his mother. She has no common sense or sense of humor. She has no ambition and she doesn't like animals.But! She is a sweet girl, good hearted. I know, I've known her longer then he has. I, on the other hand, am 25, bi, very sexual, kinky, very hygienic. I'm open-minded, easy going, funny if not occasionaly funny looking. His kids, mother, siblings, inlaws, ex-wives (yes, plural), dogs, cats, love me. I have my own business, that has flourished in this recession. I've a beautiful ganja garden. I have my own house. I'm responsible, maybe a bit of a control case, a little too self depreciating. I've an education, no debt, plans for the future. I used to model in my teens, An was on the cover of a popular magazine. I wasn't capable of giving him a long daily dose of clingy attention. I just don't do that. He, is a very attractive 32yr old, twice divorced, father of 2. He, is also a high school drop out that works in fast food. Has acriminal record. He has nothing of his own. I wanted to share everything I had with him. I never made demands, or tried to control. I offed friendship, love, help and support. Then he replaced me. And because we never declared a relationship between the 2 of us, I went quietly, painfully. Still talked to him. 3 weeks later i get the first of many, many propositions to get a room with him, to help him cheat on the girl he choose over me. He says he's not into her sexually, she don't like the ganja, and smaked his cat in the head violently. She doesnt like any of the things we found in common. I've never taken him up on it. I can still feel the anger, less now, deep in my chest, like a burning fist. The anger that he caused by replacing the, "best friend he's gonna marry" with the 19yr old girl. I want to go to the room, screw him till his brains leak out his ears. Show him what he's missing. Rub his mistake in his face, like a bad puppy.. If I do, he wins this battle I have going. I need to drop the feelings I have and erase him, don't I? I feel so stupid for still talking to him. I know I have a million faults, but I'm not stupid. I'm a good person, and would make someone a great partner. Did I push him away or did he run away? Am I better without him? I should have caught on when I found out about the 2 ex's, huh?