My Initiation

I was gay, I was effeminate, I crossdressed a lot and very convincingly. It was 2 years ago, I crossdressed to go out with a man. It was just a first date, he knew I was CD, I hadn't begun to becoming a female yet, but felt every bit a woman. I had never had sex of any kind other than insertions by myself, and using my hand sometimes, but mostly anal insertions. He took me to his home instead of a restaurant, had a beautiful meal prepared. I assumed that maybe he was afraid to be seen with a crossdresser in public. But that wasn't it. After a bite to eat, and several glasses of wine. His friends showed up. With my date it was 9 men in all. They all took me sexually in my mouth and in my asspussy. I was a virgin, then in a couple of hours was a gangbanged slut, well that is what they were calling me.

I wanted to run out of there after they were done, my "date" went first and last in my bottom, his friend with the giant cock took my mouth for the first time, then after 5 others went in my bottom he took his turn. After two times with him, I could take all the others. They all came inside my mouth and my bottom, a few even shot on my face. My clothes were all ripped, only my bra was intact. I got dressed and covered as best I could and I was driven back to my place.

It was unexpected, terribly frightening, and I had bruises for two weeks. When he called and asked me out again, I went. He abused me, used his belt on me, then had sex. I now want and like that kind of rough sex. I want to have the control taken from me and have my body used by a man solely for his pleasure. My sex holes for their use and pleasure.

I dated a guy a month ago and he was nice, lovely, and with me in transition now, he was respectful and made love to me. I didn't get what I need.