Needing Sexy All The Time

I masturbate all the time without any husband and I am in mid life never been married and most men hate me for my red hair. But I just spend hours masturbating wildly to hot porn where men make love to sex dolls and slow deep dive penetration that I like.


I really enjoy these sessions alone but desire a husband and think it would make the sex even more erotic for me and tingling to have a real man love me that way.


I imagine all kinds of things he would say to me to keep me horny for his dick til I cum over him like a hot mess so wet and I have to say, its made me explore my vagina in ways I never have before. Felling the sensation of the lubrication glands inside are very delusions but I also like lots of clit stimulation as well.

I don't know why men don't like me when I am one of the nicest women around they could ever met. I even tried a few times to become a bitch for them to see if that would stir them up seeing kindness seems to make them limp dicked.