Sins From Long Ago

When I was 16 I was 5'10, about 145 lbs. and almost every weekend for close to a year babysat 3 kids from Friday afternoons until Sunday mornings. At the time Pete was 12, Karen was 9 and Jeff was 7. I was unqualified but think their mother thought me more mature because of my size and the fact I looked older than my age. I did treat them very good and they all liked me right away. I'm not sure how it started but I was somehow able to manipulate the boys where I could see them naked. It began with their bath time and I always had Karen bathe first and always had Pete bathe last. Both boys were circumcised and although I had only seen pictures of male genitals I was surprised how big Pete's penis was. He seemed a little embarrassed the first few times I saw him naked but after a short time was kind of shy about it but more relaxed around me. Jeff never even thought about being naked around me and neither did Karen. The only time Pete got mad or embarrassed is when his sister saw him naked. The bathroom did not have a shower at the time so they all had to have a bath. After a couple months one night as Pete was in the tub he started saying he wished they had a shower in the house. That's when I became devious and obsessive with examining Pete's body.

I bought a 10 ft. hose with a nozzle and after getting Pete in the tub encouraged him to stand up as I sprayed his body down. Without asking I first washed his back with a soapy wash cloth and when he didn't object to anything I scrubbed his entire body. He never said a word as he was full of soap head to foot. It was the first time I ever touched his penis and scrotum and actually had him bend over as I washed his butt exposing his entire anal area to me. It was the first time I could tell he was embarrassed in a long time but I continued washing him.. Then I adjusted the nozzle to spray and slowly rinsed off the soap . I had got him to open his legs wide and sprayed his testicles and penis slowly and that was the first time I saw him get an erection. Even that I had seen him naked many times before that it excited me to see him get hard. It was exciting for me and caused me to get aroused and later that evening I masturbated thinking about it. I only mentioned to Pete that we shouldn't tell his mom about the hose and he evidently never did.

This continued the rest of that year until they moved to North New Jersey close to where their mother worked. I didn't wash Pete all the time and would leave him alone at times. I would keep the bathroom door open enough to watch him and numerous times watched him jerk off. I must have been a pervert back then as i would become aroused just watching him satisfy himself and able to see him ejaculate. I liked washing him and also spraying the soap off having him open his legs and bending over. I was obsessed with exposing him to me i would have him bend over and pull the checks of his ass apart. I was then having a complete view of his anus and genitals from the rear. I realize today how indecent and immoral I was by subjecting Pete to this kind of indignity. I was disappointed when they moved but see now that it was best that they did. I was becoming reckless and purposely touching his genitals whenever I could. intentionally trying to arouse him just to see him with an erection. His grandmother was there every Saturday afternoon and it became obvious Pete never said anything about it to his mother or grandmother. Aside from his early embarrassment I do believe he enjoyed the way I humiliate him at times. Although he was 4 years younger than me he was always under the impression I was much older. I shouldn't have done all that to Pete but at the time I was kid also but with no excuse to behave the way I did.