Finding My Real Self

I posted about my cousin Beth making me bi sexual on a sleep over I figured I could not be lesbian as I still liked cock I loved to stroke it and jack off guys even blow job but not to finish after the first one shot a load in my mouth not saying anything I nearly choked it was thick and yak the one and only time I had a cock in my pussy was when I was 16 I caught my cousin 24 fucking his gf on a mattress in the shed all the adults had gone into town to get stuff for the party he told me to get out I was a bitch in those days and said NO I want to watch kick me out I will tell mom and dad he said you can't just watch you have to play with us ok I said ok I was horny and wanted to watch him fuck her he told me take off your top I did he said watch and slid his cock into her he sucked quickly on my nipples said you want you get picked me up only 90 lbs turned me round facing is gf he pushed me down head to the floor his gf turned over held my head and kissed me hard and long meanwhile my cousin had lifted my skirt pulled down my panties and slammed his cock into my pussy not realising I was a virgin pushed deep in again until he was balls deep inside me it happened so fast and my mouth was covered by his gf when she fished the kids I turned and looked at him he asked if I liked his cock I told him yes which I did although it stung a little as he slid in and out I was scared about getting pregnant I knew he had no condom on I turned my head and told him please don't cum in me he said was that please I told him yes a big please I was happy the cock felt good then he told the gf come help me I need somewhere to take my load I thought into her the felt her hands open my bum cheek and she licked my buthole then spit twice on it I knew what was coming I felt him slide out of me and put the tip of his cock on my bum hole and push he said to relax either cum in your arse or in your pussy I thought to myself I had shit fatter turds out of my arse than the size of his cock this made me relax and it worked the head once in he pushed a little further not too much it just felt full like pushing out a big one he rocked backwards and forwards asked his gf to stroke his balls she also played with my clit and shortly he stopped pushed a little more and I felt three spurts of his cum shoot in my arse hole it was warm and felt like an enamel I had once as a child he pulled out stood me up said I was a pretty girl and would have not done anything had he known I was a virgin be he was mad after I answered him back he kissed me softly and said his gf would look after me and go to the house with her she said to sit on the toilet and try to shit it's ok you don't have to but it will allow his cum to come out of you he always has lots she came back ask if I was ok held my hand took me to my bedroom on the bed was my clean panties a panty liner and a jar she said lay on the bed knees to the chest she then put a little cream on my bum hole pushing her finger just into the hole she asked if my bum hurt I told her no it was fine just a stinging in my pussy just a little she said in a few hours it will be gone and the next time a cock slides in there it will be heaven she put the liner in the panties said you may get a little streak of blood but only once she even put on my panties made sure my clothes were neat she cupped my breast told me she would love to show me how to make love to a woman kissed me so softly then left so there I was lost my virginity and got my arse filled with cum all in one day for not keeping my mouth shut still I don't regret it at all so positive I'm by even if my pussy lacks cock history I do have a follow up on the cock issue but will post later it's late and I have to sleep