This is obviously no big deal to experienced swingers or the those who have wild fetishes, but to me, a former republican, now pretty leftist liberal, good career, and all around normal guy, I have always had jealousy pangs when I thought of my girlfriend, any girlfriend I have had in the past, having sex with someone else. But I confess, it still turned me on. Majorly. So, having had some great sexual escapes with hot female friends, including fucking one of them in front of her boyfriend (and my friend), I've never watched anyone having sex with my girlfriend (any girlfriend I've had). So my current girlfriend is quite liberal herself, but a very faithful one, and after three years, has shown no desire to have sex with anyone else, and wouldn't tolerate it from me. However, I have imagined her having sex with someone else, even fantasized about it, and dreamed it one night, each time having those deep pangs of jealousy, but still more turned on than anything else gets me. Now, I'm not saying I don't get turned on easy, because I do. Sex in the woods, or just when she is wearing cute panties, hair in a pony tail, and white socks. Not sure why the white socks does it for me, but I think it connects with why I like cute panties. The cute panties remind me of my adolescence, aka 'the wack-a-thon years', when I did NOT have sex because I was very quiet around girls and never made any advances or flirting, and was when my masturbation fantasies imagined various girls I knew and a few who I had managed to see in their underwear, and of course, said underwear were those cute kind with tiny flowers on them, etc. So anyway, back to my current girlfriend... she is cute, has a cute butt, wears those panties, and while faithful, had no issues getting naked in a hot tub at parties we enjoy. in fact, that turns me on when she leans out of the hot tub to get a beer and her cute butt is there for every guy to see. Also, another confession, once we 'broke up' for a couple of days, and I took a flower to her house late one night and put it on her doorstep, then knocked on the door and waited hidden but where I could see her on her couch though the window to see her reaction. However, I could not see the other side of her couch, and saw she kept looking that way, and could not see if her mouth was moving, but it seemed as if she was talking to someone. She was in her underwear and a tight t-shirt, and I genuinely thought she had a guy over. I confess, I then was voyeuring, wondering if I'd see her have sex with someone. I imagined watching her straddling him on her couch in her panties, rubbing his dick between her legs, and watching him feel up her butt and pussy through her panties, then slide her panties to the side and see her reach down and guide his dick into her. The pangs were there, but again, I was very turned on. Later, I would learn, she was simply turning toward her laptop and skimming research papers online for her studies. Nonetheless, the voyuering her having sex with someone else was a major turn on that I couldn't deny, despite the pangs of jealousy.

We are very honest with each other about sex and she is not a prude at all. The only issue where she might be considered such is her strong self-admitted jealousy about not wanting me to have sex with someone else, but that's not really prudish. So we have role played during sex that she is telling me how she had sex with another guy the night before, and describes what he did to her, how his dick felt in her pussy, how he felt up her ass and fingered her, all the while while I am fucking her. She gets into it and so do I. My dick is extremely hard thinking of it. Also, we have made a few sex tapes (told you she's not a prude), and when watching them and masturbating to them, I often imagine it is some other guy with her and I 'discovered' the tapes hidden in her room. Sometimes, I imagine she is beside me, saying 'well, I made this tape last week with that guy, but if you really want to watch it, that's fine" and describing each scene and what "he" is doing to her.

Also, the last few years, we have gone to goth parties, and she takes my suggestions on what to wear, and she dresses so fuckable. Extremely short skirt, light make up, red lip stick, cute black and white striped panties that you can see if she bends over just a little. At one party/rave, there was a large 'groping' booth, where anyone could go in (up to about 5 or 6 people), and anyone could stand outside and be groped from the many holes in the groping booth at dick and pussy level. At one point, holding her beer, as we walked by it, she turned her butt toward it and stood still. Immediately a hand came out and started groping her butt under her tiny skirt. I asked if he was touching her pussy, and she smiled with a fluttering of her eyes and said 'yes'. It was so hot to watch.

So, we discussed the possibility of her having sex with someone else and I watch then join in, and also expressed how I am not sure I want it to happen, but still like thinking about it. We talked about potential people this could happen with, if it ever were to happen, and she confessed she had no one in mind. Then she mentioned "Brock" form her Business class at school. She said she could imagine it with him, and they did have a somewhat 'flirty' friendship. She said he was leaving the country in a few months, so she'd feel more comfortable with that.

Well, we didn't talk about it much more for since then until last week when I was out of state and she texted me "I think I found a potential for our voyeurism thing". Wham! Jealousy and eroticism coursed through me... I replied, "That sounds hot. Who is the potential?" she then tells me it is Brock, who she broached the topic with, and he was down with it. She expressed her sorrow that she didn't tell me that she was going to ask him before she did, and that she'd drop the idea right away if I said to. So, I replied that while I am still mixed up about it, I didn't think I could pass up the opportunity. So, she contacted him again, and he's all for it (I can't imagine a guy who wouldn't be).

So I was real worried about the awkwardness, like, I knew I didn't just want to invite him over and have the sex ensue. I knew I wanted it more to be a flow thing, where it'd just 'happen' one night while we were partying or something. Then she mentions the perfect scenario.. we'll find another goth event that week before he leaves.. she'll dress that uber-fuckable way, with the tiny skirt, cute panties, etc. She will have a couple drinks to loosen up, then start getting close with him. If he seems timid, she'll guide his hand to her butt, and make out with him. Then, she'll leave him for a bit and do the same with me. She'll go back to him and let him touch her pussy through her panties, and whatever else ensues. If there are private rooms (such parties often have large basement areas with lots of sheets hanging down creating several 'rooms'...they are walkable-throughable by other part goers, but partiers that know what is going on down there). Once there, she'll do stuff like let him touch her all over, and eventually, lean against the wall and stick her butt out, and let him slide her panties down and start fucking her. She will enjoy it, she said, knowing it would not be a turn on for me if I thought she wasn't, and, she said, because she knew I wasn't hurt by it.

So, I've been insatiably horny for her since we now have this planned. When I fuck her, I am realizing in an almost shocking way, "Holy shit... some other guy is going to be doing this to her soon... it's REALLY going to happen...he's going to have his hands on this soft ass I am feeling right now, she's going to feel his dick in her tight wet pussy like I am doing right now...he's going to see her close her eyes and lean her head back in ecstasy and let out cute gasps like she is doing now. And the jealousy is still there, but the turn on is stronger.

I have been consumed with the thought all week, and it will be maybe a month or more before this happens. I want it to happen, can't wait until it does, but still worry. I don't know what makes me worry, but I think it is that it will open a Pandora's box with her, where now she will say she is going to have sex with other guys and I just have to get used to it. Or, have sex with other guys and not tell me. but my fears are somewhat assuaged because she tells me even though she is looking forward to it, if I say the word, she'll drop it. She says it out of genuine care for me, not of fear, because she knows I highly value NOT controlling her. That her body is her body, and I don't hold a deed to it. That loyalty in our relstionship is not based on the sex, but the true friendship and connection we have.

So there it is.. I'm gong to watch her have sex with someone else. And it's fucking with my head hard. But I know it's going to be hot.