Bi-Curious Begging To Blow A Man

I've been desperately thinking about taking a nice, hard cock in my mouth for over 5 years now. I'm in an incredible relationship with a woman I genuinely want to marry and be with. She's attractive, she's perfect in every way. But, when I'm alone, I get that feeling where I need a big cock in my mouth. I wanted to try so long. I had the opportunity to in the past, but chickened out. I wanna tell my gf about this, but Idk about how she'll react. For now, I'll have to stick to practicing blowing dildos and imagining that hot cum on my face and in my mouth