My Friends Son.

Over the last while I have been fantasizing about my friends son and Im disgusted with myself. Hes recently turned 19, so it isnt as if hes too young, but Ive known him since he was a little boy. He still calls me "auntie", but god if he hasnt "grown up" in some really attractive ways.

Hes so handsome. Hes just the sweetest thing youve ever met, and I want to do awful things to him. I havent made any kind of obvious pass at him, but Id be absolutely lying if I said I hadnt thought about it a million times by now. Its not even like its been a while for me or anything Im just so incredibly attracted to him. He even just smells amazing. I dont know what it is.

I keep trying to justify it in my head, that there wouldnt be anything wrong, but again, his parents are both very close friends and everything about it feels so wrong.