Straight Female / 31
I Was Hoping He Would Look Past It
I am leaving my age at 31 cuz that was when my life technically died. I been so lonely and every man I turned to was taken from me. I felt like "hope they see past it" about my life and F'ups along the way. I don't expect any man to be completely perfect. But also I don't need them to be so imperfect and feckless and fool hearty.
when you reach 20 you are looking for mature love, by 30 even more so and by 45 you kind of don't care but with you could have maturity in your life and sexually.
I got over my loves by just moving on. but how much moving on can you do? it becomes a blur where the past feels like the present or future or in between and you can't find the sweet spot due to as asshole pop star. Its not really my fault I like younger men because of all the things that was done to me. My cousin tried to r**e me and sure, we did get up to stuff but that is not who I have to always be. It just shaped parts of me. Its not all of me.
I been waiting for something a long time.
when you reach 20 you are looking for mature love, by 30 even more so and by 45 you kind of don't care but with you could have maturity in your life and sexually.
I got over my loves by just moving on. but how much moving on can you do? it becomes a blur where the past feels like the present or future or in between and you can't find the sweet spot due to as asshole pop star. Its not really my fault I like younger men because of all the things that was done to me. My cousin tried to r**e me and sure, we did get up to stuff but that is not who I have to always be. It just shaped parts of me. Its not all of me.
I been waiting for something a long time.
