i'm keeping this huge secret with no idea how it will end. for the past couple of days i've been gradually overdosing myself on tylenol, taking far more than the recommended dosage. i did the research and know this might cause liver failure, possibly death. it's sort of a russian roulette with myself. sometimes i think about stopping or asking for help but i'm too embarassed to admit this is intentional, so i just keep going and if/when my liver fails i will have no choice but to play dumb and not confess what i've been doing. that's all.