When You Know You Don’t Mean Anything

We’d been having an amazing affair for over 5 years with the most incredible sex of my life. I longed for every time we could meet up. We both played out our wildest fantasies together, we just clicked. But recently I discovered I wasn’t the only woman he was messaging. I questioned it and believed him when he said it was “just a friend” but knowing he was messaging her and not me got me feeling even more naive and vulnerable. I thought the whole time I was his only other girl. I gave him everything I had but I guess it’s just not enough. The worst part is I don’t want to say goodbye to it all but what else can I do. I can’t be second choice or
who even knows how far down the line. I loved giving him the best of my naughty side but even that was never going to be enough. Heartbroken and hating myself for giving so much when he never felt the same even after all this time. So many amazing memories just destroyed.