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Women Only
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Straight Female / 37
From Asexual To Pregnant In One Careless Moment
I am single (and currently pregnant). The father did not give consent for a termination so here I am going on five months pregnant with a married man's baby. It's bad enough that I'm pregnant, but worse is that he has taken ownership of me and I have to account to him on where I go, who I go with, etc. He has unfettered rights to me and comes by unannounced to have sex. I will say that sex is missionary and the only weird thing about it is the way he holds me and stares into my eyes. I'm concerned that the baby will push him onto my back as I go thru the pregnancy,
I'm sure it's hormones. There is no other explanation why I would give up my independence and give him on demand access. I have never been into sex, in fact prior to his action, I had only had sex twice before. I've been down the route of women, but I determined that wasn't in me either. I don't understand why right now I'm available for sex at the drop of a hat, or more specifically, the drop of my apron.
One example. He put his index finger to my forehead. I acknowledged he was the 'daddy'. Whenever I have been around men who want to go there I have always been very distant and set hard limits. All I did when he had me acknowledge he was the daddy is to answer to him ' and I'm the mommy'. I gave up my independence completely. And presented myself to him for him to have sex.
I know his wife socially. He told me that he had to tell her and we had to see where that would go. I told him I would NOT give up my baby to them for adoption. I'm keeping the baby and I'm going to be the mother. Like he said, he's the daddy, but like I said I'm the mommy. As it is I'm shopping for a bigger place and I'm looking to him to furnish the nursery and take financial responsibility with his child (at his request we haven't checked for gender). He want's to be surprised, but he really wants to be surprised with a girl since his wife had two sons.
Right now I a super possessive of my pregnancy and have accepted that I will be a mother and I will raise my baby. I don't know if after the hormones subside I will continue to be available to him or if I will revert to my former self. I know that without his financial help I will be in a very bad place, so I'm not likely to behave in a manner that pushes him away from being an active and participating parent, and that includes financially. I don't expect to regain complete independence, the second my egg was fertilized that went out the window. I do know this, a single mother without a father around is the worst position to be in. If I have to trade sex for the rest of my life to keep him in the daddy orbit, I will give him sex. Why should this relationship be different? It comes with the territory.
I'm sure it's hormones. There is no other explanation why I would give up my independence and give him on demand access. I have never been into sex, in fact prior to his action, I had only had sex twice before. I've been down the route of women, but I determined that wasn't in me either. I don't understand why right now I'm available for sex at the drop of a hat, or more specifically, the drop of my apron.
One example. He put his index finger to my forehead. I acknowledged he was the 'daddy'. Whenever I have been around men who want to go there I have always been very distant and set hard limits. All I did when he had me acknowledge he was the daddy is to answer to him ' and I'm the mommy'. I gave up my independence completely. And presented myself to him for him to have sex.
I know his wife socially. He told me that he had to tell her and we had to see where that would go. I told him I would NOT give up my baby to them for adoption. I'm keeping the baby and I'm going to be the mother. Like he said, he's the daddy, but like I said I'm the mommy. As it is I'm shopping for a bigger place and I'm looking to him to furnish the nursery and take financial responsibility with his child (at his request we haven't checked for gender). He want's to be surprised, but he really wants to be surprised with a girl since his wife had two sons.
Right now I a super possessive of my pregnancy and have accepted that I will be a mother and I will raise my baby. I don't know if after the hormones subside I will continue to be available to him or if I will revert to my former self. I know that without his financial help I will be in a very bad place, so I'm not likely to behave in a manner that pushes him away from being an active and participating parent, and that includes financially. I don't expect to regain complete independence, the second my egg was fertilized that went out the window. I do know this, a single mother without a father around is the worst position to be in. If I have to trade sex for the rest of my life to keep him in the daddy orbit, I will give him sex. Why should this relationship be different? It comes with the territory.
