My Brother Almost Fucked Me As Kids

When we were kids we grew up really close to each other. We lived in an alcoholic family that could also low key slip in to violence if our parents started to fight while drunk. Me and my brother are the only two kids and i am 3 years older. Often I'd look after him and we just grew up in away where he'd slip into bed with me if he got scared at night. He was just something we did as kids in an unstable home and we just never stopped doing it.

When I was 16 i was already sexually active for a few years with boys my age because in dysfunction you look for comfort anyplace and I was cute, blonde. and had pretty big tits even back then. I guess he knew i was active but we never spoke about it. One night when no one but us was home he came in my room and got in bet with me like normal. When he thought i was a sleep he started touching my boobs over my top. He would have been about 13 and i was 16. I just laid there and pretended to me be sleep. I really didn't know how to respond at all so i just let him. It happend a few times a week and kept getting bolder. I was just confused and honestly came to expect it when he got in my bed so when i heard him coming faked deep sleep.

Let me explain, i was popular and had lots of boyfriends and getting laid, he was ok looking but super shy and not popular at all at school and kind got bullied a lot. The chances of him getting lucky in out small town was low. I felt really bad for him so i'd let him slip into my room, cuddle, wait until he thought i was a sleep and he'd play very softly with my boobs and quietly jerk off beside me in my bed. I would make sure to "sleep" in a way to give easy access and have on a large top that was easy to lift up over them so he could see my tits not just touch them.

Honestly it use to turn me on so much to hear him right beside me beating off. I wanted to watch and play with his dick for him and give him some pleasure but he was my brother and I knew the second he knew i was awake it would freak him out and end it all. But wow fuck, did this make me horny knowing he was doing this to me. So eventual i stopped wearing panties to bed and only wore a large t-shirt with nothing underneath and when i heard him coming would "sleep" is a postion that my legs just happened to be spread eagle for super easy direct access to my pussy . Soon he was touching and looking at my pussy, even fingering me while he thought i was a sleep. He should have know it would have woke me up, to literally finger me, but he was 13 and horny and willing to risk it. This went on for months, he grope me, finger me, and beat off and cum on the bed or a few times on me ass and when done he'd fall a sleep cuddling me and leaving me fucking crazy horny. I am not going to lie, I tasted his jizz more then once after he was a sleep.

We i look back on it all these years latter, we both needed each other so bad. i loved him and as wrong as it was I am so glad he got off by groping and finger me for month at end. I am just sorry i ruined it at the end.

On night he was spooning me in my "sleep" he had my night gown pulled all the way up, he was going to town playing with my pussy. I was so wet. I wanted to fuck so bad. I can't every express how confused i felt wanting to fuck him more then i every wanted to fuck anyone in my life yet and the same time knowing he was my little brother and it was so wrong. All i kept thinking was how i wanted to roll over and take my own brothers virginity so bad. I wanted it to be me. I want to be his first time. The only reason i didn't was we were all each other had and if I did that I could risk or relationship. I my postponed myself "in my sleep" to have my ass against he hard dick. And like clockworks he pressed his exposed dick along my ass crack and was humping my ass crack getting friction between my cheeks. It was then I think he decide he wanted to fuck me, or risk trying to fuck me in my sleep.

He spread me full eagle and was trying to figure out how to lay bewteen my legs and slide his dick in me without putting pressure on me and waking me (being 13 he was clueless). I could feel his dick so close it being in me, he dick head grazed me slit several times. I was so horny to fuck him I got impatient and took his dick in my hand lead it the slit and pressed in in the right place.

The gigs was up. He knew I was a wake. He prematurely cummed before every getting in me, and when i sat up to tell him it was ok, we could do it again, the look of shame on his face for what he had been doing to me horrified me.

"I am so sorry. Please don't hate me" he kept saying over and over and teared up. I sat up and full on kissed him DFK with tongue, looked him in the eyes and told him I loved him. He could touch me and way he wanted any time.

We kissed and cuddle more and went to sleep together. After that night he never came to my room again and we never talked about it again, but are as close as ever. I fucked it up i guess. I still wish we had went all the way.