Straight Female / 35
Sex Gone Wild
I been seeing a sex counsellor for 3 years and dr smyge (we will call her) told me to think of things that irritated me to keep up arousal to masturbate more.
I have tried this over the past 2 years and found it hard sometimes. I was thinking of anything that would make me feel uncomfortable to orgasm faster.
I started imagining my ex and thought this was bad seeing he was so abusive and violent and a angry man in the bed.
So I started masterbating thinking about those times with him and I would look at female and male nudes sometimes and famous people and mostly men to gushingly wet and squirt jerk off to.
I am not sure if any of it is working. I found I loved this new man more and not the past person but I would feel gut awful and want to cry after orgasm.
and just question the whole thing. I thought of all the days work at office and out any annoying thing that got locked in my head to fuck louder and harder.
cum harder as well. squirt and not sure if I even like it. or myself anymore.
my ex is with his wife and I don't even want him. H e was rotter hub to me. Fat, short and dull and not even a days joy with him and glad to have broke up with in a year of relationship .
I can't understand why my counsellor suggested this techque. Its turning me off sex more and more. Complicating it as well.
I have been thinking about stomach pain or when the toilet is not free, when the boss bullied me. What a boss said last night to me. anything to keep baking the boobies and pussy.
I am not sure if there is any win in this play.
I want to give it up cuz I only do it about every 11 or 12 months now and think that is why you gave it up. Remember it didn't work last time and you needed to turn the energy over to another men to orgasm.
YEH I tell myself. Don't do it again .
I have tried this over the past 2 years and found it hard sometimes. I was thinking of anything that would make me feel uncomfortable to orgasm faster.
I started imagining my ex and thought this was bad seeing he was so abusive and violent and a angry man in the bed.
So I started masterbating thinking about those times with him and I would look at female and male nudes sometimes and famous people and mostly men to gushingly wet and squirt jerk off to.
I am not sure if any of it is working. I found I loved this new man more and not the past person but I would feel gut awful and want to cry after orgasm.
and just question the whole thing. I thought of all the days work at office and out any annoying thing that got locked in my head to fuck louder and harder.
cum harder as well. squirt and not sure if I even like it. or myself anymore.
my ex is with his wife and I don't even want him. H e was rotter hub to me. Fat, short and dull and not even a days joy with him and glad to have broke up with in a year of relationship .
I can't understand why my counsellor suggested this techque. Its turning me off sex more and more. Complicating it as well.
I have been thinking about stomach pain or when the toilet is not free, when the boss bullied me. What a boss said last night to me. anything to keep baking the boobies and pussy.
I am not sure if there is any win in this play.
I want to give it up cuz I only do it about every 11 or 12 months now and think that is why you gave it up. Remember it didn't work last time and you needed to turn the energy over to another men to orgasm.
YEH I tell myself. Don't do it again .
