At Wits End

I'm just another horny bisexual that enjoy looking at women like that causes me to masturbate. Sorry...I have to do something. I haven't had sex with another woman in over sixteen to twenty years. I'm completely over my wife and have been.
If I ever decided to find someone to fuck, I'd be nervous. But I was tired of a woman who can't SHUT her MOUTH as we fucked. She is that much of a distraction that I could never get off. She has a bullet that she used to get off on. Meee? Nothing. I use to convince her to allow me to butt fuck her. That was great, cause I wasn't face to face and she didn't talk as I fucked her. I TAKE my time enjoying each stroke in her sweet ass hole. I'm a decent man. But I've developed a kink since I don't have sexual contact.
I love to be free and kinky! She never wants to do anything. She's fucked on me before. I really don't care what she does. Love to see her with another man fucking! Doing what TURNS me on. I then can have a orgasm, releasing my STRESS. But last night, I was careless and my wife caught me looking at porn with my pj's down and me masturbating! She made me feel ashamed. That's not right. As she left today, she pulled out, snd says quickly, ok, you can go look at naked people and drives off. Fuckin bitch!