It Was Wrong Then And Always Will Be

I am the 4th of 5 children in my family. My brother is the oldest, 5 years my senior. When I was just 7 years old he used to fuck me in the ass. I idolized him so he could do no wrong. This went on for 6 years until he left for the military. I never liked it. It stopped hurting after the first dozen times or so. But I never was aroused by it. But if my big brother wanted to use me for his pleasure I let him because he was my hero. My dad was an abusive asshole who I hated with all my being. When I was old enough I fought back and then left the house and was on my own. It was a rough few years but I made it to where I am today. I have a degree and a good job. A wife and three kids. I had to do a lot of things I didn't want to along the way, which I'm not ashamed of. I let old men do to me what my big brother did for money and help along the way. But once I was on my feet and had my career going I ever took up with a man again.

I don't hate my brother for what he did. But I've told him years ago to never contact me again and stay away from my family. I had to tell my wife that we don't talk because he abused me when I was young. I've never told her the details.

The bottom line is that just because someone makes you engage is gay sex it doesn't make you gay. You're either attracted to people of the same gender or not. I'm not gay l, I have nothing against gay people. But when gay people force themselves on to other people it's wrong. Just like when straight men force themselves on women.