I Wish I Could Find A Guy...

I wish I could find a man who would like to lick my pussy and make love with me with passion, who would worship my body every day.
I was a virgin until a month ago,so I lost my virginity at 25, it was really a bad experience.
First of all I didn't feel comfortable at all, it hurt like hell, the guy I was with tried to be as gentle as possible but it still hurt, the sensation of having a penis inside my vagina was really odd, I didn't felt any pleasure at all, but I suppose it was normal for the first time.
Since then I only had sex once,last month with that guy, actually an old friend, he came to my place and we got both a little aroused because we was at a party before,and yeah things happen, it was kinda weird when  we wake up in the morning because we only had a platonic relationship, so it was the first and last time when I will sleep with him because I don't wanna ruin my friendship with him.
What I am looking right now is to find a  more confident  and experienced man
who knows how to fuck a woman properly, I am really unexperienced, I don't know why I waited this long time for a man to deflower me, probably because I was really shy and reserved when talking to guys.
So I really really would want to meet a guy who would want to eat my pussy and fuck me better, I wish I could get satisfied and have an orgasm, ia that too much to ask?