Straight Female / 27
I Wish I Was A Slut Or Had The Courage To Be Slut
Women and girls who have a specific appearance and women
and girls who are sluts seem to have the most value in society.
I don't mean those women who are sex workers.
I mean women who love sex and they're desired by many guys.
Many times i fantasize myself to be a beautiful, young, social and shameless slut who open her legs for any guy and love sex. I always wonder what my life would looked like now if i was like that as a teenager or in my early twenties.
My self esteem and self worth would be high or at least higher than now. My life would be completely different. My life would be easier. I could have a relationship with an older man and live in a mansion with him right now. I would be available for sex wherever he wanted and if he would liked he could share me with his friends or strangers.
Yes i know i might sound immature or silly but i see that only this kind of women have the most value. Especially by men. Because let's face it most women feel valuable according to how desirable are to men.
Maybe i'm overreacting, i don't mean that girls and women don't have value, of course they have but if they aren't sexually attractive they don't seem to matter so much in society or to men.
I can't realize if it's my fault or society's fault for believing my value is more to my appearance than anything else or to how much desirable i am to men.
I don't really want to be a slut or to sound vulgar but when i see these girls who are so pretty, so sexually attractive with nice breasts and skin i caught myself wanting to be like them and just because I don't have the courage to be like them i am not like them. I know i will never be like them, i don't know why, i just know it.
I guess men would wanted a good girl (and i think i am a good girl) for themselves but i know they would dump me in seconds for those kind of girls.
Even if i know i will never be like them at least i think it's way better to be a slut than an overweight girl with sexual shame , depression and social anxiety like me.
and girls who are sluts seem to have the most value in society.
I don't mean those women who are sex workers.
I mean women who love sex and they're desired by many guys.
Many times i fantasize myself to be a beautiful, young, social and shameless slut who open her legs for any guy and love sex. I always wonder what my life would looked like now if i was like that as a teenager or in my early twenties.
My self esteem and self worth would be high or at least higher than now. My life would be completely different. My life would be easier. I could have a relationship with an older man and live in a mansion with him right now. I would be available for sex wherever he wanted and if he would liked he could share me with his friends or strangers.
Yes i know i might sound immature or silly but i see that only this kind of women have the most value. Especially by men. Because let's face it most women feel valuable according to how desirable are to men.
Maybe i'm overreacting, i don't mean that girls and women don't have value, of course they have but if they aren't sexually attractive they don't seem to matter so much in society or to men.
I can't realize if it's my fault or society's fault for believing my value is more to my appearance than anything else or to how much desirable i am to men.
I don't really want to be a slut or to sound vulgar but when i see these girls who are so pretty, so sexually attractive with nice breasts and skin i caught myself wanting to be like them and just because I don't have the courage to be like them i am not like them. I know i will never be like them, i don't know why, i just know it.
I guess men would wanted a good girl (and i think i am a good girl) for themselves but i know they would dump me in seconds for those kind of girls.
Even if i know i will never be like them at least i think it's way better to be a slut than an overweight girl with sexual shame , depression and social anxiety like me.
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