Is That Weird A Girl Pay A Male For Sex?

I'm sorry for any mistakes, English is not my native language.

In December i will become 28 years old and i'm still a virgin. I tell my friends that I want to have sex so much, i really want to know what an orgasm feels like but at the same time i'm afraid.

In the past i tried with some guys but I didn't like it. I tried only blowjobs. I didn't feel anything.

I don't blame them. I start to believe that the problem is me.
Even though sometimes i am really horny and have dirty sexual fantasies something stops me from doing it in real life.

I am very shy and don't know how to talk or interact with a guy.

So i thought it might be good idea to pay a male sex worker close to my age or younger or older to have sex with me on my birthday.

Someone who i can choose myself and like his appearance and his cock's size and thickness and as a sex worker i guess he will know how to make me orgasm and how to make me feel good.

I won't know what to do that time on bed so he will have all the control and initiative over my body and tell me what he wants me to do to him.

I know that i have to be pretty and shaved and that's not a problem. I believe i look pretty innocent too.
I thought to drink a little alcohol so I have more confidence before sex.

Also i wonder if it's weird for a girl to pay for have sex. I don't know if it's usual or rare.
We used to listen that boys and men pay for sex not girls and women.

Should I do it or not?