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Women Only
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Straight Female / 39
In The End Sex Is Overrated
I grew up in a very prudish household. No talk about sex, no talk about anything. Modesty was everything, don't bring attention to yourself. We were encouraged to do well in school, be kind to animals, respect our elders, the police, the granny lady at the mall. As I went through puberty I had my once only talk, about menstruation. Nothing about sex, no mention of the penis and vagina thing. High school was normal, dates were all group events. I went off to college, the only knowledge about sex what I read out of curiosity.
My college life was nice, I loved my classes, I had good friends, we talked about marriage, children some day. But I hung around kids like me, we didn't talk about sex. Needless to say we graduated virgins, high GPAs, got good jobs. Out into the wide, wide world we went. We weren't uneducated, inexperienced, but not uneducated. I actually was looking forward to my first time. And I didn't expect it to be after marriage.
25 came and went, 30 came and went, still a virgin. I experimented with masturbation but it never really caught on. At 37 I 'mentioned' to a coworker that I did want to get married, to have children. I just never met the right man. At one dinner he and his wife, they have two kids, we talked about my situation. It was the very first open conversation about sex, his wife told me it was good, because not having sex was not good. Children changed you and there was no turning back. Think about it.
My friend, now that the ice was broken, offered. He would do it, to end my misery. It happened at his house, his wife talked me through it. Her recommendation, toon out, go to a happy place, let him use my body. For men sex it's like masturbation, it doesn't mean anything. So don't expect much. She was right about that.
Well. it meant something to me. Sex was not without emotion. It is penetration. Between that day and this one he's done his duty several times. For him it's masturbation, in a vagina. For me it's penetration, penis in vagina. It may be mechanical, but it is his penis in my vagina. It's personal.
I want to get married, have children. I'm 39 now with out any prospects. For me it's better than not having sex. At least I'm not a virgin. And for his wife, she gets a break. For both of us sex is overrated.
My college life was nice, I loved my classes, I had good friends, we talked about marriage, children some day. But I hung around kids like me, we didn't talk about sex. Needless to say we graduated virgins, high GPAs, got good jobs. Out into the wide, wide world we went. We weren't uneducated, inexperienced, but not uneducated. I actually was looking forward to my first time. And I didn't expect it to be after marriage.
25 came and went, 30 came and went, still a virgin. I experimented with masturbation but it never really caught on. At 37 I 'mentioned' to a coworker that I did want to get married, to have children. I just never met the right man. At one dinner he and his wife, they have two kids, we talked about my situation. It was the very first open conversation about sex, his wife told me it was good, because not having sex was not good. Children changed you and there was no turning back. Think about it.
My friend, now that the ice was broken, offered. He would do it, to end my misery. It happened at his house, his wife talked me through it. Her recommendation, toon out, go to a happy place, let him use my body. For men sex it's like masturbation, it doesn't mean anything. So don't expect much. She was right about that.
Well. it meant something to me. Sex was not without emotion. It is penetration. Between that day and this one he's done his duty several times. For him it's masturbation, in a vagina. For me it's penetration, penis in vagina. It may be mechanical, but it is his penis in my vagina. It's personal.
I want to get married, have children. I'm 39 now with out any prospects. For me it's better than not having sex. At least I'm not a virgin. And for his wife, she gets a break. For both of us sex is overrated.
