Nobody Would Ever Know

I am muslim, petite and fit. I am currently dating a guy since the last 8 months and it was great at first but now he no longer shows the same love he showed me when we first started dating. I feel less important each day and this relationship might fail but i love him and still hope he is this is temporary. However... A guy i knew from my school days messaged me on IG a month ago and he is an ex's friend. He has always looked handsome but i was not interested in him until now. We secretly kept contact and met up sometimes the whole month until now and we grew close so fast but i know it was because i craved attention and affection and he gives me just that. I have never had sex and wished to remain a virgin but last sunday we met after my bf told me he wants to be alone on that day.. and he expressed deep desire and lust for me. And i felt the same way... We went to his place in his car and my heart was beating so fast the whole time and once there i lost control. He knew i wanted to stay virgin but we both craved each other so bad so he ate me out and i gave him a blowjob and finally we had anal sex.. he is kinda big and we struggled a bit but he is very loving and patient and when he penetrated me it was not painful. Only uncomfortable but when i got used to his cock in my ass it was very pleasurable. We made sweet love in his bed and he fucked my ass twice and filled my ass up both times. When it all ended i knew i had fallen for him. He confessed having feelings me since high school and i felt butterflies in my belly. I felt bad for cheating but this made me feel good. He is very well aware of my bf's existence and wants to be my secret bf. I agreed and since then we have had anal sex 4 days, after he has picked me up after work. He is an amazing man and he spends all his time with me whenever he can. Maybe he is the right one. But until i figure it out i have to keep this a secret. I still have feelings for my bf but my new man makes me feel ways he doesn't. Specially when he takes my asshole and makes love to it