I slept with one of my best friends boyfriends back in september, a week after i broke up with my boyfriend. I have always been a good friend but for some reason totally fucked up. i am not like that i dont do things like that to friends. i am a huge flirt but it went to far. anyway, he told her about this last weekend, and now she doesnt want anything to do with me. fair enough i know, but ive been her friend for 7 years (since HS) which is more reason for me to have NOT done it, but i did, i made a mistake and i want our friendship back. to make matters worse, we are in a group of very close friends of about 5 or 6 of us, and i feel like ive lost most of them. there'll be no more girly hang out nights, drunk ladies nights or anything. i am only 19 but these are friends from grade 9. A few of them said they love me unconditionally and know i have, and realise that i have fucked up, and that i need to learn from it.

Im scared about losing them,
and im scared becuase i am capable of doing that to a friend.

i am suppose to be a good person, a good friend, good heart and morals. what am i now? a slut with no friends.

My ex boyfriend has taken me back... i have no idea why. i am lucky to have him. but i feel he deserves better. I've been with his best friend as well during one of our breakups.

This is no joke, seriously, its sounds like jerry springer but this is my life. what has happened to me???