He Knows

My husband and I have been married a year and a half. He was my first guy for sex since I was 15. I've only had that boy who was first, and my husband. The reason is that basically I'm lesbian. I've always had girlfriends who were more than friends. In college I went wild as a lesbian woman, very out and didn't care who knew it. I especially loved it when shy girls would come to me and want lesbian sex, but wouldn't admit it to others. I got off outing them with me via PDAs and even to the point of sucking their boobs at parties, kissing them and rubbing them off between their legs in front of others. I am totally in love with my husband and my lesbian girlfriend. He is aware that he is mostly "cover" for my lesbian girlfriend and I, but I have sex with him, and will eventually let him get me pregnant.

He allows me plenty of time with my girlfriend, though he does ask me why I want it so much. I have no explanation other than I crave sex with other women. He took me to a resort in the islands, that was nude and pretty much open swinging. I enjoyed getting fucked in front of other sexy women watching us, and eventually participated with other men, and their wives, and my husband and I started letting a beautiful woman in her 50s stay in our bed and bungalow with us.

He wanted to continue and wanted me to have sex with my girlfriend with him in the bed too, but I just can't with her. I don't want him around when I'm with her, I feel totally hers when we are together. She has had way more men than I, hasn't had one though for about 10 years. She is someone I want for myself. Though I'm certainly willing to go back to the resort and let him participate and watch as much as he wants.