Orgasmed Hard And Felt Shitty

I been so depressed for months and months now, since about may or june 2021 and its now oct 2022 and things are worse. I masturbated and its just function to get rid of some energy its nothing else. I don't know why people make such a big deal over sex and love.

I don't need him or a psychopath rapist or what to turn me on.

I just go with functionality.