i would appreciate any feedback you'd like to give

I was dating a man for about 6 months. we never really split up, things just kind of tapered off and our scheduals conflict so we see eachother very infrequently. he is still interested in me, but i have moved on, it's just hard to know that someone really cares about you and wants you, and you don't feel the same way

there is a man who i have known for years that i care really deeply for. we talk on the telephone frequently and actively plan on having a relationship at some point, but we live in different states right now and so things are kind of on hold

then i just met a very handsome man who works at my neighborhood pub. we have a crush on one another but it is mostly physical attraction. though i certainly plan on having sex with him (at least i hope!!) my intuition tells me that a relationship would not work very well. so i am looking forward to sleeping with him, but not pursuing a serious relationship

and then last night, i was at that same neighborhood pub and the handsome man wasn't there. the other bartender and i have always flirted and last night we were drunk and we went home together. the sex was fun, we had a good time. but he is a good friend of the handsome guy that i still want to sleep with. and the bartender from last night has a girlfriend. oops
i'm kicking myself now 'cause i hope i haven't ruined my chance to fuck the handsome one

so my love life is a bit messy and complex right now
do i sound like a tramp? 'cause i don't feel like one
i'm just a young girl exploring her options and having a damned good time doing it
i'm just bummed about last night 'cause in retrospect i probably should not have gone home with him
but there is no sense in feeling guilty either, what's done is done

anyone want to offer me some advice?

p.s.- i am ABSOLUTELY practicing safe sex every single time!!!
hope all of you are too