Here I Am Contemplating The Future With A Baby I Didn't Expect

I'm 36, I just confirmed I am pregnant with a doctor, I am single, always have been and the father is my married supervisor at work. I haven't told him yet. A one night stand, while his wife was visiting her mother with the kids, in her bed. I don't think there is going to be much sympathy there.

I have always been against abortion. Since I was 10. I grew up where every baby is welcome, even if that baby is from an unmarried woman and her baby's father is a married man. I will not have an abortion. That means I will go through with this pregnancy and I will keep and raise this child. I am not rich by any means, but I have a great job, I am degreed and have a professional certification and a great work history. Even if I changed jobs I expect I will be paid within 10% of what I'm earning how.

I am not the hotty down the hall. In fact I am anything but conventionally attractive, and I'm ok with that. Many women have a bit of a big caboose and not much on their chest, in a society that pretends to be all about what's between your ears, your chest matters more when fishing for a man. No brains and big tits wins the day. All brains and no tits puts you in the boat I'm in. It's a fact so don't comment about how wrong it is, men want tits.

My supervisor is a man who hits on women all the time. That night he joined a group from the office for Mexican food and I stayed behind, he started kissing my hand, my thigh and asking me if I wanted to play hide the weenie. I said what the fuck, at least I will get laid. (not a virgin but almost). He was pretty into himself, sex was all about him getting his rocks off. I got wet, but only after he had penetration going. I'm shy and it was embarrassing for him to force me to show myself with the lights on. He ate pussy, I sucked dick, he got around to my backside and I decided to let him, he used my pussy juice to wet me up and frankly he slid in without a problem. While he was giving me the treatment I hit my clit and I managed to orgasm. I'm not a prude, I just don't get much practice.

So now I have a baby of my own. I won't have to the favorite aunt anymore, I'm going to grow a baby and push it out and be able to share from experience instead of wondering what it must be like. My current situation is how do I tell my supervisor, it al all. Do insist on child support, if I do he gets to call the shots. What about his wife, I can't expect her to be thrilled about a one night stand baby in her midst. A lot leans me towards just going on with my pregnancy and not getting my supervisor involved. But, and this is the 'but' in the equation, not having a father for my baby is not what I want.

So there it is, all out in the open, knocked up at 36, twenty years later than most.