I Would Like To Try

So my confession... I really want to try a couple things that would be considered "gay" but pleasure-wise the thought of turns me on. I have a gf so I'd have to be really discreet. I really want to try giving oral to a guy and docking, if I can find someone uncircumsized. I've tried a couple chat apps but everyone is so in a rush to get to doing stuff I don't really feel comfortable with them and you have to be careful, right? Any ideas?