Cluster F*ck

I moved out of Michigan about 7 years ago to relocate for my new career. I got a great job working in Georgia where I had never been before. But I have grown to love it. I'll usually take a trip back home over the holidays and summer vacation etc... This past 4th of July I had gone up for the week to visit friends and family. One of my best friends from my childhood happened to be visiting the same week with his new bride, and we all got together to reminisc and catch up.

As soon as his wife and I met, I felt it. The amazing connection on a level I've never had before. If there is such a thing as love at first sight, it just happened to me. To make it worse, as I found out shortly thereafter she felt the same thing.

I had gone to the bar to get a round of drinks for us and she had gone to the ladies room. On her way she said these exact words to me. "I know you felt it too!" My heart was beating out of my chest, I stammered...uh really? She said, I see it in your eyes and I feel it in my soul. I said I can't deny that there is definitely something going on. But you're Matt's wife. She handed me a piece of paper with her number on it. She said take this and call me. We need to talk.

I got the drinks went back to the table and started talking with Matt about how life is in the south etc... When she got back she acted like you'd expect a newly wed to act. Arm locked with her husband. She smiled politely and would occasionally touch my hand while she laughed at every joke. Each time her hand touched me it was like a mild electric shock running through me. I did my best to stay focused and after about an hour I made an excuse to go home early. He insisted we get together again before I head back south. Sure, sure! I said. I had the hardest time sleeping that night. I struggled with adding her number to my phone. But ultimately didn't. At least not at first. The next day though I get a text from Matt saying they were going to hang out with our friend Eddie and his wife the same day I was (Friday) and how great it was going to be, the three amigos together again!

To make this long but boring story shorter, we all did hang out that Friday and got a bit high and Matt had too much to drink and passed out. Eddie and Theresa sais they were going to get some food together and that left me and Amy all alone. She was unhappy that I never texted her. To which I said it's probably best that I don't. She said why? I said it's obvious isn't it? I've never felt this way about someone let one someone I just met who also happens to be one of my two best friend's wife. After a few minutes of going back and forth I finally relented and added her.
Now I know the rest of this will disappoint most of you because I'm sure you wanted to hear about how we had this awesome sex etc... But no. There wasn't sex. Not even until today, some 4 months later. But we text just about every day and talk whenever time permits. We have actually gotten to know each other quite well. I'm totally in love with her and she says she's in love with me too. But she still loves Matt too. But here's the hardest part... She says she will do anything for me. She would leave Matt and do her best to let him down easily. Now I guess I should add that she's sent me nudes and I have sent her some too. I feel bad about it all quite honestly. I don't think I could live with myself if I took her from him. But I also can't stop thinking about her and how much I want to be with her.
If this isn't the worst cluster fuck ever I don't know what is.

Oh yeah, Matt wants them to come visit this winter.

FMTT!