Might Be Bi Curious

I’m a straight male with a girlfriend, but lately I’ve been increasingly curious about gay encounters.
My girlfriend and I are long distance right now and as such I have the space and inclination to masturbate frequently. Of late most of my jerking off material has been gay porn. At first I deluded myself by thinking it was just a thrill. Now the only way I can cum is by watching a gay blowjob or a stud being ridden.
I have a growing collection of anal toys and dildos that my girlfriend doesn’t know about. I can cum so much harder with a toy in my ass than I ever have with her. Sometimes I suck my dildo to get hard, ruin my orgasm and use the cum as lube to put it in my ass. I constantly think about having a man cum in me. I think I might need to try it.