Living Sex Toy

When I was 18 I left home to be in a relationship with a guy who was 51. We started chatting a little before that, camming and getting to know each other. He was crazy for my petite frame. He loved how tiny I was, my perky round Bs, my blonde hair. He talked me into being comfortable naked and touching myself in front of him. Well, on cam.

He lived a few hours away, but a couple times he did come and stay in a hotel near me. The first time we got together it was just oral. He showed me how I should suck his cock. His cock wasn't terrible long, but it was pretty thick and he definitely came like a horse. The first time I couldn't take it all and got blasted in the face after pulling it out of my mouth because it wasn't done shooting yet. He decided a shower would be the best way to clean me up.

After I got all the cum off my face I noticed he was hard again, standing behind me, stroking his cock, this hungry look on his face. "What?" I asked, smiling. He told me to get on my knees. I smiled as I did, thinking he wanted me to suck him off. He approached me, kind of backing me into the corner of the shower. With one hand he was holding his cock in my face and the other he was pulling my hair back, tilting my head to look up at him.

He asked me if I was ready to be completely his. We hadn't had sex yet, and i thought that was what he meant, and said "Yes." He then started to piss on me. I was shocked at first. the stream hit right between my breasts. When I looked incredulously up at his face I saw the pleasure he was having and told myself it isn't too bed. We were in the shower after all so what's the harm? I took all of it. I didn't even protest when he shoved it in my mouth and filled it with piss. After he was done, i proceeded to satisfy his other need and blew him until he came in my mouth and I swallowed it.

After I left with him and moved to his house, he wasted no time. My therapist says I was brainwashed, or some form of it, But I bought it wholesale. I let him do whatever. And I loved it. No matter how depraved. He even took me to a couple... are they orgies? Swinger parties? I don't know but I was popular and got a lot of attention. He used me like a sex toy, but I didn't mind. I was HIS sex toy.

I was 22 when he said we're done. I had to come home, heartbroken. I mostly got better, got not so turned around, but a couple times I fell back into the sex toy persona with new guys. My therapist says it's because when I feel safe with a guy I give him every part of me.

I'm currently single. Probably for the best. And I know you all think it's weird that I let men pee on me. I get it. I think it turns me on because it's kind of a "marking your territory" thing. Being marked as his property was something I enjoyed. Is that really a bad thing, though?