Fast Forward From When We Were Kids

When we were kids, my older brother, Carl, and I often jerked off together. As a matter of fact, my brother taught me how to jerk off.

I’ll never forget the first time this happened!

I was roughly 10 years old, my brother was 15, and our parents were away for the weekend. We spent the first night watching TV, playing games, and eating pizza. Nothing out of the ordinary. I fell asleep on the couch in front of the TV. My brother woke me and told me to get off to bed, which I promptly did.

I went upstairs and got into bed. While I was lying there I heard Carl was still watching TV and wondered what he was watching. I felt a little left out and would prefer sleeping on the couch. So I got up and went down again.

When I got downstairs, just before I rounded the corner into the living room, I saw Carl busy playing with his penis. I’ve never seen him do this before. For whatever reason seeing this caused a flood of feelings and sensations I could not yet explain. I stood there, transfixed, spying on him. I noticed that my own penis was getting erect and honestly did not understand why.

After what felt like ages of spying on him, I decided to go ask him what he was doing. The moment I rounded the corner to enter the living room he jumped and immediately pulled up his pants! He almost looked angry at me. He asked me what I was doing out of bed and I told him I felt lonely and scared upstairs. I immediately asked what he was doing. He tried to hide what he was doing and just said he was watching TV. Of course, I did not leave it there and I pressed him for an answer. He seemed very uncomfortable LOL

Anyway, he made me promise that I would not tell mom and dad. Then he proceeded to try and explain what jerking off was. It did not make much sense to me yet. I started asking why my penis got hard when I saw him doing it. Why did I feel so strange?
Eventually, I asked him if he would show me. At first, he was not comfortable and said no. But I could not accept that as an answer. I pushed him to show me and made sure to affirm that I would never tell anyone.

So he stood up and pulled down his shorts. He told me to do the same and come sit down next to him. My heart was racing! I’ve seen my brother naked plenty, but never with an erection. It was huge!

I sat down next to him and he started showing me on himself what I should do to myself. We are both uncircumcised so he was showing me how to pull the skin back and forth. I did not get this “special feeling” he was talking about and quickly asked him if he would do it for me.
To my surprise he did! And at that moment I simply reached out and started doing the same to him.

It felt amazing and naughty. He jerked me to the point of my first orgasm!
Wow, suddenly I understood the “special feeling”! My orgasm was completely dry. No semen till I was around 13.

Carl looked amused at what had just happened and asked if I now understand.
I was so eager to do it again and I wanted to see Carl get the “special feeling” too!
So I asked if I could do the same for him. It did not take long before he was saying “don’t stop now!” He blew his load all over his stomach and my hands! I was not expecting semen since he didn't tell me about it. But I remember the warm silky feeling of it.

After this, we did this many times. At least three to four times a week. This continues till the day he moved out to go to college when this all came to its natural end. We never spoke about it again.

Fast forward to my 30th birthday which has just passed.

We went out clubbing with a few of our friends and Carl came back to my place. We were both pretty drunk. He was spending the weekend. He started talking about all the wild sex he and his girlfriend are having these days. Telling me all the naughty shit they get up to in great detail. When suddenly he pops the question: “Do you still remember the shit we used to get up to as kids?” I laughed and said yes. He then proceeds to ask “Would you do it again?”.

I was a little surprised, but I laughed and said only if he promises never to tell mom and dad! LOL!

So here we are, two full-grown adults, porn on the TV with our hands down our pants. He made the bold move of stripping down first and we were transported back in time to when we were kids. We went a little further by giving each other blow jobs. It was such fun!

Now my question to all you folk out there…
Is this behavior okay?
Do other brothers our age (30 and 35) do the same?
Should I feel bad that I really enjoyed this and really want to do it again?