Cock Memories

These are a few memories seared into my brain still after decades. I had known since I was a teenager that cocks turned me on. Back then being a queer was taboo so you didn't want anyone to know. I was 18 and a friend and I were swimming in his backyard swimming pool. I had no gay experiences then and kept my desire for cock greatly supressed. Except when I jacked off which was often. I used to steal stockings from the store and wear them jacking off. I felt like such a sissy homo wearing stockings. Still do today. Anyway, got off track. I was done swimming and sitting down. My friend was skinny dipping. He gets out of the pool standing there drying himself off. I found myself staring at cock very discretely. I got rock hard instantly. My friend wasn't queer so I was very careful not to get caught staring. He finished drying himself, puts his swimming suit back on and says lets go get some munchies. I couldn't just stand up. Not with my raging hard on. I kept hesitating with my friend asking me what's wrong. I gave some flimsy excuse about being dizzy or something until my boner waned. It was a sticky moment about getting caught turned on by a cock.

I was a senior in high school and this kid named Mitch W. had his locker next to mine. After PE and showers, getting dressed I couldn't keep my eyes off his beautiful cock. I loved when tying my shoes bent over I would look over at his cock that was maybe three feet away from my face. Looking back I wonder if he knew I was staring at his cock. There were times he was just standing there facing me with his cock as I'm very slowly tying my shoes. I so wanted that cock but had no idea about gaydars back then and being a homo was something you kept very secret.

It would be some 25 years later after these memories before I actually started getting some cock.