Some people get really do get crazy when they first start drinking or use drugs for the first time. I've seen people do things that they would never do in their right mind but afterwards it's too late to take it back. There's a girl down the hall of my dorm who I went to high school with and she can't even look me in the eyes now because she knows what I saw her do. I'm sure that she never used before (that's the kind of girl she was in high school), so getting her high was the big challenge. It's pretty weird when the inhibitions go away. I didn't see the first part of how it began but when I got to the party she was entirely naked on a coffee table and a guy was trying to shove the handle end of a plastic baseball bat into her pussy. The bat wouldn't go in because she was so too small so they put vaseline on it and he kind of twisted it while pushing and then it went in and I don't think she liked that part. The guy basically used the bat handle as a kind of fucking tool. I've got the images and the sounds of it in my mind and I know she knows it. I know she saw me watching. I remember watching her face and wondering if she was actually liking it or not. It seemed like she did and didn't at the same time. I feel sorry for her. I saw a guy from our floor put his finger up her ass. I saw a lesbian girl playing with her clitoris and she couldn't seem to be able to want to stop them but Im' sure that now she wishes she could have. I don't know how a girl like that could face everyone afterwards. I heard she mostly stayed in her room after classes and was going to another school next semester. I shouldn't have watched. I shouldn't have seen what I saw.