Why...

why are my fingers so short :((( i just want to cum.... I've tried inserting a pencil into my pussy once but it's too small :(( but my hole is so tight... it's hard to fit more than one finger.... i always have to masturbate by inserting only one finger because of how tight it is... i need someone to stretch me out :(( i want that sweet spot to be rubbed by more than a finger :(( i really want to fuck myself rn :(( I've tried humping a pillow while naked once but i just can't cum.. it felt good but i just couldn't cum :(( i really want to be fingered while being praises at the same time.... being called a good girl, a princess, being told im doing so well..... i really want that :(( and i need a thick veiny cock to fill my tight little hole :(( ugh...