Overthinking My Sexual Future

I've posted a lot here recently because I've been feeling so horny and needy lately and there's no way I'm telling anyone in real life about it. And when I'm horny and needy I always become so submissive and pathetic and I'm not sure if people actually notice it. One thing I'm afraid of is that people around me are quite vanilla, and I'm worried that if I marry someone he'd be bad at sex. I want a man who could guide me, call me names in bed and pamper me after, or just praise me the entire time and handle me gently. Or a man that would tie me up and talk dirty and tease me and make me beg for him to just stuff his cock inside my pussy already, a man that would eat me out, lick my clit and pump his fingers in and out my hole, a man that would call me a good girl as I sob and take his throbbing cock. I'm worried if I won't get a man that could fulfill my sexual desires, my kinky fantasies, my sudden need to be touched and played with. And what if i get a man who's unwilling to eat me out? What if i get a man who's so vanilla he'd hate how I keep begging to have sex daily. What if i get a man who doesn't care about my climax? I'm horny, but worried. They say communication is key, but what if the guy doesn't even want to talk about such dirty things? I think my standards are quite low, a man that would love me, a man that would be good at pleasuring me, a man that would care for me, a man that would respect me (unless i ask for the opposite in bed) and that's it, it's really that simple but somehow i feel like it's so difficult to find a man this perfect to me.