I Really Am A Slut

This is about an addiction. In my case it is an addiction to men I do not know. I cruise bars and hotels waiting to meet and get picked up. Usually men from out of town and go to their rooms as long as they want me there. Truly, my feelings do not get hurt if they throw me out. I will do any form of sex they want, most men want straight sex, but for a few it's an opportunity to try something different. My life as a night slut is carefully guarded, I live alone, away from family, work in real estate and make decent money.

I have another habit, not quite an addiction. I only watch movies or read novels or view porn with women. I get a lot out watching two women come together and when I need porn watching two women have sex. I enjoy seeing women's bodies, exploring a woman's body and wondering what it would be like to be touched by a woman in the way that men touch me. But I haven't tried, or met a woman who I would do that with.

I am 32 and have not met anyone that I would want to be true to. I'm afraid that no matter who I get serious with I will still go out and be a slut with a man at a hotel bar.

I should add that I am not unattractive or so overweight as to only pick up men who want big women, I have a decent figure and face and I can talk all night about many things. A Mr. nice guy turns me off, even just talking to one. A man who puts his hands on me and goes after me turns me on. I'm not selective at to age, but most men I go to bed with are men in their thirties thru fifties, men who travel a lot for business.

That's my confession, I started by accident and I can't stop. That's why I think it's an addiction.