Body Count Problems

I'm a tall skinny gay guy, always been more pretty than handsome. Was born with a very feminine face, so got teased a lot at school by boys asking if I was a boy or a girl. I thought about crossdressing and do dabble from time to time but I'm happy to be what's commonly known as a femboy. I've always been very skinny and have never been able to build up any muscle, but I do like to keep myself fit and toned. So at 18, I joined a gym that said it was gay-friendly, with lots of fit men, and got lots of attention. I hadn't long lost my virginity so I went into a very slutty phase, I would go first thing in the morning, have a work out then have sex with some random. Go after work, have a work out then have sex with some random. Then go out clubbing at night and have sex with some random. At the very least for about 12 months I was having sex with 3 different guys a day, every day. I didn't think of it at the time I was just enjoying myself but I received a phenomenal amount of cock. This is where the problem is.

About 4 months ago this new guy started at work and for me, it was love at first sight. He was so handsome and so friendly and very confident, he was just over 10 years older than me but it didn't matter. He was very straightforward and told people he was bi but was single at the moment. A lot of the girls at work wanted him, but none more than me. I made my play at a company night out and ended up at his having the best sex of my life. Everything was perfect, his body, his face, and his cock.

He asked how I stayed so toned and I told him I went to the gym daily and he asked to join my gym. I didn't think twice, it would be great to go with him. But unfortunately, some fragile egos went to that gym and resented him being with me and told him of my slutty past. He came back very angry and asked me if it was true my body count was so high. I didn't lie and told him I was young and yes lots of men had had me, but I was with him now and wouldn't look at another guy. He said how could he trust someone who had let so many men screw them, but that was my slutty phase, I wasn't like that since I met him. I even got myself tested just in case that was the deal breaker, came back clean. But he insisted that he couldn't date, someone, with my sexual history.

Now I'm in limbo. I want him so badly, but he's ghosting me, and nothing I say or do is helping. I don't want another man, just him, but don't know how to get him back. Hopefully, when he sees I'm not riding another cock he'll see that I've changed and I'm not like that anymore and come back. But I'm regretting my past now.