I Want My Dad’s Cock Inside Me

My mom and dad adopted me when I was 7. I came from a house of abuse and my bio parents and uncle would often r**e me. I was happy when I was adopted because I could finally get away from them. My adoptive parents are a lovely black couple (I am white) and they treat me good, even if they often got weird remarks bc I am a different race.

But when I was in middle school, my adoptive mom died. My dad has been raising me alone since then. He’s a good dad but he is lost on raising a daughter sometimes but it was fine. I love him but when I hit puberty and started getting horny, my love changed. I started thinking of him while masturbating and fantasize that he would r**e me like my bio dad. I felt disgusting for thinking that but it still turned me on sooo much. I started hooking up with black boys at my high school and moan my dad’s name while they plowed me deep. I just can’t keep myself from wanting my dad to fuck me. I have seen his cock by accident before and spent the whole day after fucking into myself with a dildo while thinking it was him. I want my dad’s cock to make a mess of me. I repressed my feeling for so long, especially bc I feel guilty to my adoptive mom, but I just turned 18 and idk how long I can keep it in anymore. Now that I am legal, I want to seduce him so bad! I try to keep myself occupied with other older black men now but it’s just not the same. Are there any other girls who wanna fuck their daddy this bad? Has anyone done it? Any tips on dealing with it? I am so desperate rn I might just end up jumping him!