Begging For A Black Man To Use Me

So I lay here in my bed. Thinking, daydreaming , lusting. My ex and I were swingers for 4 yrs I guess. She and I played with a few men a couple white guys 7 hot as black men I love interracial the contrast between them two and you can see it so well and its just so sexy and one. One mixed kid. I say kid he was 19 and hung so I let him have her and boy. It was super hot. But any ways back to my confession. My ex and I were high as kites and I told her I thought her black lovers were sexy and I was open to sucking them I mean I ate their cum out of her and loved it. Well she jumped on that and had me sucking all her black friends their friends one night I sucked and swallowed 11 loads it was hot I felt like such a whore. She loved it. Well we split and its been several yrs now and im craving a black man so bad. I think about being used by him in every way. He lets his friends use me and I willingly do it. But I can't for the life of me get laid. I have had a few chat and sext with me. But cant get physical I do work full time and I am happily married to a good sexy slut and shes a squirter to boot but all I can think about is being in lingerie and black men using me I feel like im begging to give away my boi pussy and I cant get bred I'd love to be spit roasted by 2 bbcs my ex was it was so hot I sucked both of them off. So if there's a black male with a nice cock in central fla make a comment cause I can't stop these cravings and desires I have a panty and lingerie and cum fetish im ready ripe and willing I want my cherry popped with a deep breeding. Only attracted to black men