Bengali Wife

I’ve been with my mrs for 5 years married for 13 months.
She lost her virginity to me, we got rushed into a marriage when. Her mother found out about us.
A few weeks ago while she was In the shower
I wanted to play a sound cloud playlist and pressed an app called reddit instead.

She rates other mens penises and all of them are bigger than me.
She doesn’t know I know but it turns me on so much k don’t know how to process it