My Sexual Journey

I've been interested in sex from a young age & BJs were a bit of a fascination. I'd ‘bate with hairbrush handles but I was always curious what an actual cock would be like, & what giving a BJ would be like.

At 15 I finally plucked up the courage to order a realistic cock dildo that had discrete delivery, but I was still terrified my parents would see it & ask questions, but I managed to secret it away to my room without any attention & immediately tried it out. It was rigid but not solid, had a soft latex feel, realistic head, veins as well & was firm. I just got stuck in & emulated the BJs I'd seen in porn. I researched BJ techniques & worked on my gag reflex. Even researched what cum tasted like. Dildo was 8" & with practice managed to fit 6 in my mouth.

When I was 16 I knew other girls were having sex, BJs etc but people slagged them off as sluts, so while I was eager to try my skills out, I thought I'd need a bf first. I started to put on makeup to make myself look older & went to pubs & there I experienced a different kind of attention; more mature, actual men, who thought I was 18.

1 talked to me for a while, asked awkward questions about where I lived, what I did, he was 28 & handsome. He asked if he could walk me home, or go back to his. I said he could see me across the park, he agreed so we headed off. Rather than going right thru the park he sat on a bench & we talked some more, he kissed me which I reciprocated. I asked if I could suck him off & he acted like I was crazy. He was up for it tho so we went to some bushes & for the first time an actual flesh & blood hard erect man's cock was in front of me

I sucked on it, taking it as deep into my mouth as I could. It was thinner than my dildo & shorter too & I think I did a sterling job & given his vocal reactions he seemed to agree. I slid my mouth over as much of him as I could, almost down to the balls, & it wasn't long at all before his cum started to fill my mouth. No articles in the world could have prepared me for that so I spat it on the ground.

I had finally given my first BH & sure I did a good job.

I didn't have to wait long for confirmation, in the morning he texted saying he'd like to see me again. I didn't want to lead him on so responded I enjoyed his company, but had a confession, I wasn't 18 but only 16. 16 is the age of consent where I live so it's not like I made him do anything illegal. He responded to say I suck cock really well for 16, but he could teach me a thing or two.

So :) I agreed to meet him at his place & he did indeed teach me, things that TBH I did know but went out of my head in the moment, like teasing a cock first, where & how to tease, where to lick etc. This all came with practical lessons, his hard cock out that I teased as he instructed. This time he stopped short when cumming & let his load shoot out onto his chest & I licked it up rather than it all being in my mouth. That got me used to the taste & texture (texture is worse than the taste) & worked up to swallowing his load proper.

The BJs were what I was most interested in, but he introduced me to other things. When he started going down on me it was amazing. Better than my fingers, my hairbrush handles & my dildo. I'd always seen sex as a 1-way thing & this was the point I realized it was 2-way; men should pleasure women too.

He didn't stop at oral, he was fucking me too & was keen to try different positions to see what I liked, but I was also learning to see what he liked too. After a month his condom supply had ran out & he asked if I was on the pill (I was), so suggested we could go without. He had a request for the first time we tried it bareback too which was that I wore my school uniform, a plaid skirt, white shirt. Rather than undressing me we did it doggy with my skirt up over my bum & my knickers just pulled to the side & him just ramming his cock into me. The sex itself wasn't any different, but when he finally came in me it was amazing; feeling the cum explode inside me, feeling it all warm, feeling it dribble out of me & onto the bed when he withdrew his flaccid cock, I was hooked.

I saw him for maybe a month more after that. I was enjoying the sex, but it was just fucking. I was just some warm holes for him to shoot his spunk into, a "tight young c**t" as he liked to say. I wanted an actual bf & an emotional r-ship though. Love, not facials. To be told how pretty my dress was, not how pretty my butthole was.

I was 19 before I had my first serious bf & the practice really paid off in terms of making him happy. It has opened my eyes to newer types of sex. I actually want to please him, I enjoy it even more when he cums as I know it means he finds me sexy, I can be happy having the occasional 1-way sex like a BJ for him as I still get genuine pleasure from it. He even breached a barrier I swore no man would ever breach, the thought of it used to horrify & repulse me, but the pleasure he gets from sliding his cock into my ass is worth it :)