Wanting To Acting Out On A Fantasy

In the early 90’s when I was dating now know ex wife, she lived in nursing accommodation. One day we were fooling around in her room when I ended up being tied to her bed.

My ex, having a cruel streak wanted to humiliate me, so she forcibly dressed me in her panties and stockings, hoping that I would pathetically beg her to release me.

Unfortunately for her it backfired on her and I became very quickly aroused, so much so that my ex became annoyed and choice words were said between us. Probably not the best idea on my behalf especially when I was tied to her bed and dressed in her underwear.

My ex decided to leave the room to cool down but before she did, she wrapped medical tape around my mouth so I couldn’t call out.
About 10 minutes later, I heard her room door open but quickly close. A minute or so later my ex came back in and untied me. She told me that her friend, a male nurse, who was gay, almost came into the room and would have found me, tied and gagged to her bed, wearing her panties and stockings. Her friend also just happened to like me.

Now, years later after we have divorced, I wish he had come into the room.

I have a strong desire to act out that situation which is now a strong fantasy, to be tied and gagged to the bed, dressed in panties and stockings, although now I’m blindfolded so I wouldn’t know who came in and took their pleasure on me. My current wife doesn’t know of this fantasy, but I’m having stronger urges to make it happen, probably against my better judgment, maybe just to close that door on that part of my life. Who knows what will happen.