Definitely Been Exposed

I have so many sexual memories when I was little that there isn't a doubt in my mind that I was m****ted as a child. I just don't remember.

My earliest memory is of me and my brother about age 3 and 4, we were hiding in this little closet, crawl space thing, both standing and rubbing our parts together, completely naked.

My second memory is loving my dad playing with my ear with his mouth, he did it to tickle me I guess, but I remember it getting me really going. I was about 7 at the time.

I also remember kissing my dad in between his legs while he was asleep. He had pants on tho, but I did it several times. I wonder if he was awake and knew about it.

I remember rubbing my pussy against a woody doll on the arm of the couch. And making it smell like my pussy.

I remember letting my puppy mount me and dry hump me on more than one occasion.

And then my brother and I snuck and watched our first porn video together with some kids when we were like 8 and 9. They were kids of some family friends. All I remember was a guy shoving a remote controller down a woman's pussy in the back of a car.

Oh, and my mom claims she caught my grandpa smelling his fingers after holding me on his lap. I was wearing a dress at that time and was about 3. And now, at age 32, I have crazy fantasies about older guys fucking younger girls. It won't get outta my mind no matter how hard I try.