Too Good

It comes a time when a man starts to think about his life and what he needs to be serious about. I’m there right now. Should I stop having sex with men and settle down and have kids with a woman or should I look for a relationship with a man. Being with a man in a relationship seems to me like a waste of time, I can have a roommate and have sex with him and have other hookups when ever I want and not complicate things. I love the men that I get naked with, amazing men. Yet I have not ever gotten it in my head that I supposed to be with another man. The problem is I am so good at sucking cock and taking cock balls deep up my ass and enjoy it so much that I also see it hard to walk away from my full blown sex addiction with men. It seems to me that I didn’t understand what the consequences of getting sexually involved with men were (but also becoming the best I could when it comes to taking a cock up my ass)…, a life of pleasure and sex that can distract a man and in essence destroy a man’s life. Men are good, they learn the skill and are super aware to how to please another man. I seriously have orgasms thinking of the hundreds of men I have taken deep in me and given me their seed. I want to do my part as a man in society and be responsible, contributing and a support to my community which I do in the way that I’m a responsible citizen who is employed and self sufficient but not in the way of creating children for the community. I’m so mentally fucked right now. Listen gay sex is amazing and addicting. But is it the best life for a man like me? no it isn’t. I feel out of control to be honest. This is not hating on gay men post it’s a what is it for me post.