He's Too Big

I've started meeting a guy for regular sex. He's quite a lot older than me, tall, very fit, well muscled and good looking. He is very experienced and likes long, sensual sessions for sex.
All good, but his dick is just too big for me. He gets hard just watching me undress and it looks so hot. When he's naked, with a hard on he looks like a God. I love sucking it and feeling how huge he is in my mouth. I love gagging on him and trying and failing to take all of him in my throat.

And then we fuck. It takes a lot of foreplay, preparation and lub to fit his big cock in my tight hole. It takes a lot of patience to get to a point where he can actually fuck me and then, after a while, in some positions he can actually get it all in and really give it to me. It hurts and I spend a lot of time crying out from the pain and pulling away, but at these moments i feel like I've lost myself to his cock and i sometimes cum just from his fat dick being up me. It's so intense and sexy.

I can be sore for days afterwards and a few times I've told myself I won't go back. But I know I will. I need to feel his big dick inside me so much.