religious.
I grew up a rather strict religious background (not Christian, Muslim, or Jewish, but it doesn't really matter which one) and while no one ever said to me don't be a lesbian, I kinda knew that I could never tell my family or friends that I am attracted to women.
When I graduated from high school, I went on a trip back to my parents' home country and when I got there, I found out that I had been engaged to my cousin when we were both babies. I refused, but my dad took my passport and said I couldn't have it back unless wedding was performed in a couple of weeks. I agreed because I knew I had to get back to the U.S.
It was a disaster. My cousin wasn't as interested in me as he was in immigrating to the U.S. where he hoped to have sex with many white women. After taking my virginity, he spent the rest of the time questioning me about my white female friends (I don't have any).
At the end of the summer, I wasn't pregnant so my parents let me go back to the U.S. to attend community college while my husband stayed behind to care for his property until he could sell it.
I bolted the first chance I could get and was homeless for about 2 months. I made a friend who turned out to not be a friend and now I make lesbian porn. I feel very guilty about this and want to get out, but I know porn is the one place my family won't look for me.
I grew up a rather strict religious background (not Christian, Muslim, or Jewish, but it doesn't really matter which one) and while no one ever said to me don't be a lesbian, I kinda knew that I could never tell my family or friends that I am attracted to women.
When I graduated from high school, I went on a trip back to my parents' home country and when I got there, I found out that I had been engaged to my cousin when we were both babies. I refused, but my dad took my passport and said I couldn't have it back unless wedding was performed in a couple of weeks. I agreed because I knew I had to get back to the U.S.
It was a disaster. My cousin wasn't as interested in me as he was in immigrating to the U.S. where he hoped to have sex with many white women. After taking my virginity, he spent the rest of the time questioning me about my white female friends (I don't have any).
At the end of the summer, I wasn't pregnant so my parents let me go back to the U.S. to attend community college while my husband stayed behind to care for his property until he could sell it.
I bolted the first chance I could get and was homeless for about 2 months. I made a friend who turned out to not be a friend and now I make lesbian porn. I feel very guilty about this and want to get out, but I know porn is the one place my family won't look for me.
