Straight Female / 34
I Had It All, And I Threw It All Away
I worked for the same man for three years. He was open with me and we developed a personal relationship. One day I was really hurting due to my period, he drove me home and put me to bed with a hot water bottle he stopped and bought on the way to my apartment. Putting me to bed, he took off my blouse and bra and helped me into a tshirt, same with my pants. After changing my pad, and washing myself with warm water, I walked out of the bathroom in fresh panties for him to put me to bed.
He stayed on the couch looking in on me, by the next morning the cramps were gone and I let him give me a full body rubdown, wearing only panties. He sucked my nipple on each breast, and missed me deeply on the mouth. The line was crossed, I told him I loved him, and he told me he loved me. In a few days we had full on sexual intercourse. I felt I was a woman, and was ready to do anything to please him.
The sexual love affair was now wide open, I was 'his woman' and all I wanted was to get pregnant. He held me asking me if I was ready, he wanted me to focus on being a mother. I was living the life I dreamed, pregnant, in love, looking for a house.
With the baby he asked me yo stay home. I missed the office, I was lonely at home with only the baby. My neighbor worked overseas and would spend a month away and a month at home. I had sex with him out of boredom. I knew the minute it happened that I had screwed up and I couldn't fix it. In time, several months later he put two and two together and broke off with me. Sued to keep my daughter.
I have no excuse, no reason to be forgiven. I see my daughter on weekends and holidays. I had her over Christmas this year. She is seven now. When I see him my heart breaks, when my daughter goes home with him I am overwhelmed by a loneliness that can't be put into words.
Whatever you do, don't ever cheat on your man. Whether you want to admit it or not you are exclusively his. He will not forgive you, you cannot beg, a man cannot have a woman who cheats on him. I know that, I knew that the first time I cheated. But the pain if the punishment for cheating I never imagined. That's all I can do now, tell other women about what I did. It's not worth it.
He stayed on the couch looking in on me, by the next morning the cramps were gone and I let him give me a full body rubdown, wearing only panties. He sucked my nipple on each breast, and missed me deeply on the mouth. The line was crossed, I told him I loved him, and he told me he loved me. In a few days we had full on sexual intercourse. I felt I was a woman, and was ready to do anything to please him.
The sexual love affair was now wide open, I was 'his woman' and all I wanted was to get pregnant. He held me asking me if I was ready, he wanted me to focus on being a mother. I was living the life I dreamed, pregnant, in love, looking for a house.
With the baby he asked me yo stay home. I missed the office, I was lonely at home with only the baby. My neighbor worked overseas and would spend a month away and a month at home. I had sex with him out of boredom. I knew the minute it happened that I had screwed up and I couldn't fix it. In time, several months later he put two and two together and broke off with me. Sued to keep my daughter.
I have no excuse, no reason to be forgiven. I see my daughter on weekends and holidays. I had her over Christmas this year. She is seven now. When I see him my heart breaks, when my daughter goes home with him I am overwhelmed by a loneliness that can't be put into words.
Whatever you do, don't ever cheat on your man. Whether you want to admit it or not you are exclusively his. He will not forgive you, you cannot beg, a man cannot have a woman who cheats on him. I know that, I knew that the first time I cheated. But the pain if the punishment for cheating I never imagined. That's all I can do now, tell other women about what I did. It's not worth it.
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