a few months ago I had sex with this guy who paid very little attention to my pleasure. I wondered if he didn't know what to do or maybe he just didn't care. once and only once his finger slid across my vagina and made actual touching contact, but it was almost like an accident while he was reaching for my thigh. we had sex and I didn't come and he kept himself from coming because we didn't have a condom. he seemed generally nervous. I had the idea- for some reason- never done this before- but I asked him to make himself come-- and then I licked the head of his cock while he jacked off against my tongue. He came really hard.

he never called again.

for some reason I can't stop mastrubating about it. I mean I've had much better lovers. why did this get me so hot?