My Humiliating Fantasy N Wishes

I really enjoy feeling the thrill of being treated like a female sexually, like the lone thought of another man treating me like as if I was a female turns me on. I really enjoy crossdressing and either taking photos or videos of my feminine body and exposing my humiliating kink. Like honestly if I could openly express more I think I’d stay a guy but definitely dress strictly in females clothes and be as feminine as possible such In as doing my makeup and talking girly. I think I should just be more myself n not have to hide my feelings and what I enjoy doing. Like I can’t express my feminine desires in words other than I really want to burst out into public looking like a whole new me