How Much More Beautiful I Feel Now

Between 17 and 21 I was a professional model. 5 10, barely 130 lbs. I used supplements and diets to stay in form as did many of the other girls. My sex drive was nil, my reproductive cycle totally messed up. I liked being with the other girls and roomed with Sonja from Brussels, tall, blonde and beautiful. The closest we got to sex was shaving each other and breast massage with creams. I loved watching her exercise and bend and twist. For our amusement we did our routines for each other in the nude.

At 21 in a totally unexpected moment, a businessman took me and showed me what I was 'good for'. It was embarrassing, emotional, frightening. Sonja spent the following nights with me, kissing me, and kissing my P where he had hurt me. Because I had no idea about my cycle I was shocked to find out being pregnant. Sonja immediately took me off all supplements and diets, feeding me pregnancy diets and I gained 45 pounds, I only lost 15 pounds after my baby was born. My modelling career was over.

Sonja continued to model for another year, before going off all diets herself. We are thirty something now, a solid 160, in my view now more beautiful than ever. We have to respect our daughter so nude routines behind closed doors. I won't down talk modeling, but I love my more nature look now more than ever. And Sonja loves me like this too. Who would have thought my 20 year old self would be a 35.